Every year I get a bill to renew this site. It’s not a huge bill but it’s enough that I think “yeesh, that’s not nothing.” Most years, I go through about a week of feeling like maybe I should just give it up and stop paying for this. Some years I just put off any decisions until I get an email saying the site auto-renewed and here’s my bill, making the decision for me.
But this year… I don’t know. A couple weeks ago, someone at one of my favorite blogs asked if I wanted to contribute a piece to their site and my immediate reaction was oh hell yeah. (Like, I literally wrote “oh hell yeah” as the first draft of my reply to them before walking back my enthusiasm just a wee bit.)
So… yeah, like I just said, I don’t know. When I first started this blog (back in the prehistoric age of late 2006), I put a lot of pressure on myself to do it right: build an audience, develop a brand, drive traffic to the site, find out what SEO means, etc.
I don’t want to do that anymore.
In the last few years, I’ve killed any enjoyment I had in several hobbies (including this) by trying to make them into something more. Something bigger, something profitable, which turned them into jobs which quickly turned into jobs I didn’t want. And I’m done with all that.
I can’t definitely say yes, I’m back for good, so let’s just say, I’m kind of back. For now. Let’s see where it goes from here.